JUST ANOTHER DAY

So it's crazy how fast the days go by. I forgot to look
at the date of my last blog entry, I am sure it's been
at least a couple weeks now.

Life just keeps going on. First a day goes by and
then another day. It doesn't seem like a big deal
but when I sat down to blog just now, all these
different things came to my mind about what goes
on in a matter of two weeks.

Recently, my 17 year old daughter has finally
discovered the "ALL POWERFUL SECRET"...
(a secret even better than Oprah's...shhhhhh....)
that she knows EVERYTHING about ANYTHING
the rest of us can screw ourselves! It took awhile.
For a couple years we thought we might have
made it through unharmed but no such luck. And
it's good that I HAVE ALSO discovered that she has
discovered this secret because at least now we are all
on the same page! Her momentary lack of judgements
actually make sense now! And my moments of seeing
white spots while I am yelling threats are explainable....
maybe I really do NOT need to see a therapist after all!


In the mean time, our son (our youngest)
has hit puberty. His voice and the things
that happen to it would make Criss Angel's
freaky mind proud! It's genuinely unexplainable!
It's hilarious! And it's almost sick how
much we enjoy teasing him about it!
We call him Sarah! Of course he knows
that we do it all in fun and he is sweet
enough to laugh along with us! All the
clothes that used to be too tight for him
are falling off him which really is to his
benefit, as he fits right in to
the COOL crowd with his pants hanging
down around his ankles!

My husband's aunt died of a long hard
battle with cancer. It's wierd that even
though you THINK you are prepared
for a family member's death it still catches
you off guard. We will miss her and of
course my heart is very sad for my husband.
The funeral is next week.

We got a new puppy. Oh wait....

we got TWO NEW PUPPIES!

Now I've found the real reason that
I haven't blogged for awhile. Black lab
brothers, Jake and Charlie. Very cute.
Very cuddly. Very AWAKE in the middle
of the night. And since it was MY idea I
have no room for complaint. I have spent
HOURS on-line researching all the GOOD
things to do for our new puppies including
what food to feed them. I came to the
conclusion that my husband may have to
get a weekend job so we can afford the
"perfect" food for them which includes
(but is certainly not limited to)
vitamins, minerals, fruits, vegetables, no
by-products, limited grains, low fats,
high protein, etc. I am to throw in freshly
ground food too and an occasional fried egg......
think I am obsessed?

It's the lack of sleep.

When I am sitting in my lawn chair
at one in the morning while they are
peeing all over the yard, freshly ground
fruits and vegetables are NOT what
I am thinking about, let me tell ya. And
when I am sitting in my lawn chair at THREE
in the morning while they are pooping all over
the yard, I am wondering what I can put
in their wee bellies that would end it ALL by morning!

Just kidding!

To be honest with you what I am REALLY
thinking is that the next time my daughter throws one
of her gargantuan hormonal tizzy fits.....there will be
LOTS and LOTS of poop to clean up!

Yes....lots can go on in a couple weeks.....
but at least that means that we are alive and well.
And tomorrow will be just another day!

G Spot, blog spot, it's all relative!

Ha! I caught you looking! Someone mentions G-spot and there's all sorts of attention.


Now that I have re-entered the blogging world, my mind is in constant motion.
To write or not write, that is the question.

I go through moods....
good mood
bad mood
creative mood
wanna go awol from my life mood
artistic mood
starve myself mood
eat everything mood
I love my mom mood
I can't stand my mom mood
I love to cook mood
I hate to cook mood
promise to be normal mood
promise to floss once a day mood
you get the picture


Right now it's the

I
NEED
to
write
mood


I go through this every few months. So even though I may not be sitting at the computer or have my journal in my hand, I am constantly writing. Even in my sleep. I have to take an extra "sleepytime" pill just to shut my brain off so I can rest. And now everything is subject to my "writer's approval":


my coffee shop lady (why I love her and hate her at the same time)
my obvious addiction to caffeine
my compulsions
my kids
my husband
my mother
my job
my irregular bowel movements
my dry cracked heels.....


no matter what, it's all research and better yet, its blog-worthy each in its own way! I just need to decide what sort of material I am going to be remembered for. I would hate to go down in history known as that person who has the most dry, disgusting, distracting, fungus-looking feet. HEY...it's NOT fungus thank you very much.

Oh yeah and then there's my IBMs.
I won't even go there.

I don't really have a "real" job except
I am one of those opinionated people that
think that raising normal, healthy children is a
"real" job.

My mother has at least 24 personalities.
Just kidding she only has
three.

Maybe some posts don't really have to have a main focus....maybe it's just all about getting something down on paper and getting it OUT of my head. Oh wait, what about my coffee shop lady and all the reasons I love her and hate her at the same time? I think I will save that one for it's own post:

"The ins and outs of the latte stand"
Yeah, that sounds good. But I think I need to sleep on it first.

Oh, hey. I forgot about the G-spot thing. Some artists and writers compare their work to good sex. Writing a perfect, flowing piece is as good as finding that G-spot that we all know and love. Or if you are an artist, every perfectly placed brush stroke is like making love to your canvas (so I've heard).

But, I am NOT an author and I am certainly not an artist.... so no matter what,in my book
the REAL G-spot wins!

I will DEFINITELY have to sleep on that one for sure!
HEY it's research!

MY SPACE OR YOURS

Ok, so the book I am reading is full of daily writing prompts for people who love to write and want to work on their skills. When I get a chance, I am going to start a new blog page strictly for
that and keep THIS one for my true blogging. Anyhoo, the book suggested starting a MySpace
or a blog to help wanna-be authors get their thoughts down consistently and then maybe get some constructive criticism and friendly feed back. Cool. Sounds good. Let's do it.
um....ok

here I go

yup, this is really going to be GREAT!

so lets go with....


holy CRAP this is hard


Do I plunge into the
mystical
musical
bright lights
big boobs
small clothes
adolescent energy filled
testosterone ridden
adrenaline pumping
polka dot saturated
world of

MySpace


because somehow that does not seem like MY space. It's strictly for and about other people isn't it? I don't really know. All I have ever heard about it is that it's all about networking, making friends, finding lovers, and adding anybody to your "friends" list that might NOT fall under the general catogories

child molester
child stalker
stalker in general
loner
creepy loner
VERY creepy loner
wierd guy who lives down the street
crazy person looking to add as many friends as possible
married man looking for something different
married woman looking for anyone who will listen

That's really all I have ever heard about MySpace. And then there's the problem that my daughter, one of my sisters and lots of my friends have their own space on MySpace.... and I run into the possibility that any or ALL of them might "find me out". My daughter (and all her friends) would read my writing and wonder WTF?

"OMG your BM iz waaay OTT and she is like a crazy person and you need to like GTF out of there like RIGHT NOW, OMG!"

I'm thinking that would not be good for our all around normal family life!

THEN...

I wondered how difficult it would be to find the old blog that I had a couple years ago. It seemed way less drama and more personal. Definitely more private. And I have this weird idea that I would rather "connect" with people instead of "network". Networking seems to indicate an uncomfortable social atmosphere which I try to avoid whenever possible!

I am sure there are a lot of bloggers who also have MySpace and I am sure they love it. But its not for me. I need a spot to feel comfortable as I am spewing all over whether it be

good

bad

raw and uncensored

unabashed

personal

and lacking polka dots!

OMG M LMAO

ciao!

Remember Who You Are

I am a recovering blogger! I used to have a blogspot a long time ago but I had to stop for three reasons.
First of all, I really WAS addicted. I spent almost all my free time (including many hours I should have
been sleeping) checking in on myself. I was looking for comments, responses, validation, etc. It became
ridiculous.

Secondly, I was blog-page illiterate. Seriously. I became more concerned with how I could NOT make
my page look "cool" like everyone else's! I was on the phone constantly with a good friend and she tried
to walk me through....but I was a hopeless cause. So I have already told myself not to worry about such
trivial matters this time around! I will attempt to keep my blogspot-envy at bay.

And finally.... I really did NOT have a lot of extra time on my hands. Before, I was a full time student, mother
of two, wife of one and all that THAT entails. It came down to whether or not I wanted to pass my classes and
continue being an excellent wife and mother......or keep up on the blogging!

So....two and a half years have gone by. I tried to get back into my last page....I don't know how long they
keep those things.....but I can't remember my old email address. That bums me out because I had a few really
good posts that I would have liked to have kept.

Now I am back. At the suggestion of a book I am currently reading. I love to write and I have decided
to really work on my thoughts, ideas, etc. The book calls it "practice writing". So most of it will not make
any sense to anybody except me. I am using it for my own benefit. That's why I named this first post,
"Remember Who You Are". I am going to TRY to keep it internal.

Anyhoo.....in the small chance that someone out there in blogworld happens by my really boring page....
welcome!

BTW- I finally found my OLD blog, The Musings of Mary Jane. If you have time you should read it!